Dying

Hi there. I'm kinda busy lately. So here we go. Everything was not so good. Its pretty bad. It hurting me like SO MUCH. I can't hold anymore my tears from falling. Everything just become so wrong. It gets harder day by day. Fml.

Baby its hurt

Sometimes we have to hurt someone's feelings for them to understand how it felt when they hurt ours. I'll slowly hurt you. Sorry but I have to.

Tired

I'm physically tired but it's not just that. I'm also mentally tired. I don't know how can everything's become so hard. Being in form 3 is not the best thing that ever happened to me. Like seriously, NOT AT ALL. Especially, when the teacher keep nagging about pmr thingy in the class. Like wtf? You don't need to remind me all the time. I know it. I think if the teacher keep doing like this, i might going insane. Go on please. And i hate extra class. What the hell. You guys gave us a ton of homeworks. Lol you think that ton of homeworks is not enough yet? Sucks wehhh. Bye.

I miss my past

I miss my past. SO MUCH. My life was so much more happier than now. I don't know where the mistake is. I don't know why the hell my life can turn like this. I hate my life now. Like, really really hate. I miss my old life. People keep asking what is my problem. Ha-ha. Why should i tell you guys if i'm already know that you guys will never understands. NEVER. Oh, there's a girl is talking shit my back. Lol you think i'm a fool that i don't know about it? Hahaha keep doing that girl. IDGAF.

YOU

If i could only have just one wish, i want to turn back in time. So that we could get back together again. Just like the old times. I know it will never happen. Its been 2 months already. I really miss you, AA. I don't know what did you do to me until i can love you till this much. Do you still remember your promises? If you do, is it meant to be broken? Hmm? I'm also don't know how i'm gonna live with this broken heart. For 2 months, i cry almost every single night thinking about you, thinking how can this thing went wrong. By doing this to me, its not making my life happier. NOT AT ALL. It just making my life getting sadder. I didn't expect that this gonna happen. It so killing me inside. Yeah, maybe with smiling and laughing like crazy, people never think that i would have a problem. But they're totally wrong. I'm dying inside. You always make me laugh by sent me a voice note of you singing like a maniac. You always sent me a good morning & good night text. Or sometimes you gonna call me just to wish me goodnight. You always say you love me. I miss all that. How can i forget you when there are too much memories that I had with you? No matter what happen, i just want you to know that i'll always love you, AA. You know why? Because you're not like the others. You're different. You're the only that know how to take care of me. You're the only who could understanding me. You're the only one that know how to cheer me up. You're the only one, AA. I still remember the moment when you propose me. We're both in Penang right? You was at Tg. Bungah Hotel celebrating New Year. It was a happy ending for me in 2011. I'll always remember 11.59 pm, 31st December 2011 :') We've been together for 3 months and half. And that 3 months was the happiest moment in my life. Seriously. I'm not lying. I'm so happy to be with you. You know how to appreciate me. I miss you so much that you'll never know much it is, AA. I'm still hoping that we could get back together. I want you to remember just one thing that i'll always love you. ALWAYS, AA. Take a good care of yourself okay? And..please..stop smoking. Don't break your mum's heart. Do well in your spm. I love you so much A***L :')